YOLO: You Only Love Oreos

Good morning, Austin!

It's wet and gloomy, I know. To be honest, I don't remember the last time I enjoyed this kind of weather since I had to wake up early in the morning to go to work like most people do. And all the time I was at work, all I could think of is, "I wish I am home right now under the covers. This is the perfect weather for it."

Well, I am no longer employed. So, I am home, but not under the covers. I still got up as early as 5am, by choice, because I am excited to start my day and think of ways I could improve myself with my new endeavor. But just not having to drive on the wet road makes a whole lot of difference. Plus the thought knowing that I am living my life with a purpose.

I love this present weather, I kid you not. Actually, I am enjoying the 'present' better, now that I know that I am closer to a better 'future'.

How to survive a crazy wife (Bedtime)

Just one of those random questions I ask my husband, "Do you love me?" (Ha! Random?!NO!). Of course, he'd have to say yes.

He is smart like that.

Then, I asked him, "How do you love a crazy wife?" (now, this is random!). This is actually the first time I asked him this question. So, I told him, "you should write a book with that title!". As a normal husband as he is, he said, "No, I'm gonna write about 'How to survive a crazy wife'". Then he started listing things.

B|W Black and White is Beauty Worthy

"B|W is not just Black & White photos but it must be Beauty Worthy.."

Naks! Guess I am serious about branding my own black & white photos. 

I don't have a studio. All I have is my well-lit vanity desk where I take my selfies at. I might not be able to put up too many portraits but I am hoping someday I could. For now, I am more than happy enhancing people's selfie. And no, I don't charge anything. This is just something that I enjoy doing and I love hearing people's reaction when they appreciate what I did.

If you want some good ole black and white photos, send me your portrait and I'd be more than glad to enhance it.

Random Thoughts: The Answered Prayer

I remember that night like it was just yesterday. I was down on my knees, crying to God, heartbroken and lost. The night when he left me of uncertainties if he's gone forever or he would keep his promise of non-existent love. I know it was over between us but I just shrug the thought of it, hoping that the reality was wrong. But it wasn't! I used to think that I am strong and when this happens, I would be just fine - but I was wrong. Very wrong.

I was in so much pain and I felt him hurting inside me. I had to be strong.

I told God, "I am deeply sorry for I have wronged you, I did something against Your will, and I know I am being punished. But please, spare my child. I may not be righteous to ask you for anything, but you are my loving Father, and I love my unborn child as much you love me. He hasn't done anything to deserve suffering. Let him have a good life even it means I will have to suffer all my life. You have never betrayed me God despite of the countless times I betrayed You. Please do not betray my child as he will grow up knowing You and believing in You. I do not expect anything for myself as I have sinned a lot. But please give my child everything he needs."

That was my prayer and He listened.

As I look at my son, I know I did something good at some point to deserve him and God still being on my side.